I am not motivated to do all Martha Stewart crafty, craft, crafts, DIY projects. I wish I was. I have the skill and can learn new skills. I can read and follow instructions, use my hands to build, craft, cook, and blah, blah, blah, whatever Martha Stewart can do. What it really comes down to is the motivation and time. Wait, maybe it’s the motivation to find the time?
Having two kids under the age of 4, a husband balancing his career with a hobby that is also a second job, and finding a sliver of time for me is a fine balance. My professional life, motherhood, wifedom, a house, and the need to be social with anyone other than family can be oh-so-hard. Then there is the dog, bird, ducks, yard, garden, maintenance on the car, maintenance of the house, oh wait, maintenance on the people inside too, that all need attention. It is hard either working outside of the home or inside at home.
*sigh* When I was home on leave, I had a lovely schedule and felt we were finding a nice balance in our roles. I figured out how to keep our sanity, cleanliness, food, health, and happiness. It wasn’t perfect but it worked better than how I feel compared to now.
While on maternity leave I found my mojo for motivating, and it was above sub-par. I did do more Martha Stewarty things. I’d plan out my week with meals in mind, prepping food on Sunday’s, baking bread during the week, errands for groceries or house projects, social dates for the 3-year-old for his need and mine, crafts here and there, and random projects. It wasn’t always perfect, but I came an inch closer to feeling that I had Martha Stewarty tendencies. Not only did our days work well with a routine in place, a lot could depend on if my 3-year-old began his day on a good note or a rocky-ass start.
Today my motivation is sub-par, maybe even sub-sub par. At the end of the day or when the weekend comes we’re just plain, old tired. E.x.h.a.u.s.t.e.d. I would rather sit and play with my kiddos, or this is sad but clean rises to the top of the list too, than to do the projects that look oh-so-cool and “I got that, easy-peasy” on Pinterest and in M.S.’s books. Yeah it just isn’t happening.